Saturday, May 26, 2012

I Made It: My Ode to May

I made it to the other side of May.
I'm lighter, brighter, and almost, but not quite, carefree.
I'm not going to lie to you, folks - it was not an easy month.
It was full of very high highs, of the most memorable moments.
And it contained an extremely low, low. One that made me stare fear in the face and almost took my breath away. I wish I could share it here. But to put it into words for all to see...I'm not ready for that. I'll just say that I came close to losing someone I love. But thankfully, I didn't.

May, I love you.
I wish that I could slow down and cherish every one of your days, but you always seem to pass in the blink of an eye.
My boy graduated from high school and is on the brink of his next great adventure: college.
I tearfully watched my youngest as she joyfully received her First Communion (and her 2nd and 3rd, etc. with just as much joy).
I noticed how the showers you brought deepened the green grass of my lawn.
And how you dressed my shrubs with beautiful fuschia and purple flowers.
The warmth of the sun and the gentle breezes blowing through my open windows comforted me on some of my darker days.

The end of May is now in sight; it's Memorial Day weekend. Three days of no committments, nowhere I have to go,
The fear lingers a bit, but it won't consume me.
I shared many happy moments with family and friends, some of whom  I haven't seen in quite some time. And I have a deeper appreciation for the free time that I now have. I plan to not waste it, but to use it wisely.

12 comments:

  1. I always like to reflect on each month as it passes and look forward to the new one. Sometimes I am just so GLAD to see a month end.

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    1. I do too, Karen. May is such a lovely month but I hardly ever get a chance to enjoy it. It's always so crazy busy!

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  2. May brings all sorts of blessings. One unpleasant one this time has allowed you to rehearse bouts with fear. I remember thinking about 25 years ago when experiencing a similar fearful threat which turned out well, "I reckon I need to learn how to do this."

    You've such a blessing with your children. (and they with you)

    I believe May is pleased with this ode.

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    1. You're so right, Donna. And those thoughts passed through my mind as well. At the same time I kept thinking/praying/pleading, "I'm not ready, I'm not ready, I'm not ready."

      Hugs and thanks for your prayers during this scary time.

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  3. This is lovely, Susie! I thought May would be calmer for me this year since I didn't have to do a conference in another state, but I ended up with 5 full-novel critiques to do and came down with the flu for a week. Not nearly as nice (or poignant) as your month.

    Have a great weekend!

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    1. Five critiques! Wow, Donna. That's dedication. I hope you're feeling better. I didn't have the flu but I did have laryngitis during graduation weekend. I couldn't even shout, "Woo Hoo!" when they called my son up to receive his diploma.

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  4. Another Donna comment coming...what would a gathering of Donna's be called? An awesome of Donna's perhaps!

    Anyway, I agree with Donna #2; this post was very poignant.

    Hugs to you and yours, Suzie.

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    1. Definitely an awesome of Donnas! And I love each one of you :) Thanks for the hugs!

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    2. It's amazing to have my three favourite people called "Donna" posting on a Blog! Huggles Suzie and I hope June is good to you xxx

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    3. And I forget to say ... an "awesome" of Donnas or a "Delight of Donnas"? :-)

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    4. I like that, Jane! A Delight of Donnas :)
      Thanks for stopping by.

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    5. A Delight of Donnas!! I am totally trademarking that.

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